From darkness to light
What an incredible year it’s been… a year of transformational growth.
Over a year ago, I started a very dark night of the soul that lasted for months… if anyone has not experienced this, it can be quite confusing and feel like grief, hopelessness, loss of purpose and insecurity of what and who you are. It was painful and I felt alone and often chose to be alone with myself. I felt like I was grieving for something but didn’t know what. Little did I know, I was moving into a new phase of life, where I would find my truest expression of divinity within me that was there all along.
Last August was my darkest time, I had been feeling the collective grief of Indigenous people from the recent uncovering of children’s graves all across Canada. There was anger, resentment, deep sorrow and judgement that riddled my days. I just kept moving forward doing my workouts, my meditations, prayers, a lot of journaling and self exploration. I was losing interest in things that used to bring me joy but still just kept putting one foot in front of the other until I found steady ground again and slowly made my way out of the pits of what I would imagine hell to be like. I remember going to our fave camping resort and just sitting outside staring at the lake for hours working through everything going on in my mind.
Then, everything shifted… when I found the love radiating from women and friends that started to lift me back up, like a hand reaching down into the dark pits of despair to pull me out. My coaching team, my clients and my bestie Jenn was there waiting for me, loving me and showed me that I am worthy of healing too. It started a beautiful year of evolution and growth. I met some pretty incredible humans who love me and helped me remove all fear and ego that held me in place for years.
Today, I am the in the most peaceful, loving, joyous and present place that I’ve ever felt in my life. Thank you to those who stuck by me with love and also thank you to those who didn’t… I learned a lot from each of you and each experience I went through to get to where I am today and it’s been quite the feat but I do it all with grace and deep gratitude for it all. ❤️🙏🏽